I feel the need to start writing things down again, my brain is overflowing with memories and emotions and it's getting to be too much. Hopefully this will help me, it's not as nice as that pen on paper feel, but I'm forced to not be private in this manner, maybe someone will actually give me some advice on getting through everyday, and learning how to be happy with myself and the world again. After experimenting with chemical means of attaining happiness, I'm afraid that i have permanently ruined my brain and it will never function the same again. But maybe I'm just a paranoid hypochondriac. Who knows.
maybe you do.