Lately I've been realizing how futile the language I speak is. English, obviously, describes things in a manner that seems to literal for me, there are no metaphors through words. Of course we can create metaphors and irony and sarcasm and humor through our definitions, but I feel as if the architecture for the ideas I try to portray is lost in the simplicity and concrete structure of our basic speech. I stutter. I pause, I take forever to just try and create the simplest of sentence because I feel like if I were to just talk, it would come out wrong and be taken in a way i can not stand. I don't know, Spanish is beautiful, and I feel like the flow and format of the most basic phrase is better suited for my needs.
But I don't speak Spanish, and probably never will.
one more wall.